Recently, I have fallen into something like an information addict. Having the need to know the latest news of IT tech, IT hardware, Gundam models and various topics and very regularly checking up on the various information sources.
Several forums, websites, email accounts were the drugs, since replies are fast and can come from unexpected persons. I always had the urge to check again for new updates, or posts regularly every day. I needed to know and it is a bad form of attachment.
My saviour was a buddhist book and it helped me to get over this real difficulty I had been facing. In the book, it states that everything is temporary, not worth getting and there is no self. This will help you to be detached.
The book prompted me to examine the "Cause and effect" rule, the Karma rule. So what if everything is just an continuous chain reaction? 1 thought is an effect of another thought /stimulus and this 1 thought again will be the cause of another like a domino effect. If this is true, then perhaps Me, I , U , We all don’t exist. The famous line "I think therefore I am" is not quite enough to justify existence anymore.
I also think this relates with the first law of Thermodynamics: Energy can be changed from one form to another, but it cannot be created or transformed. I tie this up with reincarnation where each of us is at least a mix of energy contained within a body. So when we pass away, this energy has got to be changed into something else. Thus, due to the good and bad actions each of us has been accumulating, the resultant energy will determine what you will be reborn again next. Maybe Reincarnation=transfer of life energy to another form.
Back to my case…. (used IS instead of WAS because I still do it currently)
So the first step is to find a time and place where I will not be disturbed to distracted. Tvs, handphone,PC, traffic noise, people walking around can be pretty distracting and sidetracks your mind to another trigger. So the purpose of this step is to make it easier for myself to get control by reducing the things that can distrupt me.
Secondly, I slowly orientate my mind to face the mental struggle and stand firmly, unwavering in the storm of thoughts. So many different thoughts wanting to get my attention but a guilty feeling arises when you ignore a thought that seems important. However it has to be done, be brave and ignore the thoughts. "I will not be swayed by my own thoughts". Purpose is to get a foothold and a firm stance, a platform where other actions can take place.
Thirdly, detach my mind from the thoughts. It’s such a tough battle trying to do this. The addiction domino is sometimes stronger than my will to resist it. "Everything is temporary, not worth getting and there is no Self" I remind myself. It’s like you are taking a step back from the storm and can now see it like a 3rd person point of view .
Slowly, the storm of thoughts momentarily becomes a drizzle, then sometimes it immediately changes back to it’s original fury and other times, it’s just raining and not much of a storm. Briefly you can taste the freedom, peace a little bit more each time you try.
Second and third steps may be repeated several times on different occasions. I do this even in the LRT to work. Minor distractions like noise and moving train is present, but it’s still your mind that can to filter this out and continue the battle.
Fourthly, by being detached enough from the storm of thoughts and the feelings that continue to pull me back, to be informed and to check for updates, I can somewhat decide now and make a decision, not to check and not to feel bad about not being ‘updated’! Pretty soon I am fine if I check a forum once every few days, instead of few times a day and it doesn’t bother me as much as before.
So this is my personal battle of ‘mind over matter’ and not letting matters around me dictate what my mind is doing. The fight goes on everyday and I don’t always win but it has helped in my situation. I now can use my mind to concentrate and complete more important things. I also save time by not checking for ‘what’s new’ so often and not be penalized by not knowing.
Nowadays, it’s so difficult to keep our minds within our control and understanding. So much media, so much information, so many products are trying to influence us. IT and other technologies makes it worse, as they delivers all these to use much faster than before. Emails, sms, forums, websites, telephone calls now gets the message across almost instantly, forcing us to react just as fast.
So please hold on, built up the courage and stance to resists, ignore and have some control of your own mind.
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( It may be an Irony, A self contradiction where i have used the words I , We when ‘I’ just mentioned that self may not exist, but hahaha.. i’ll blame it on the language where it needs a subject and object to make a sentence.
(quote of the book’s title will be placed here soon)
(rebirth / reincarnation.. need to study the difference of the words.. will make corrections here later if necessary)